I am still here. I feed and watered the chickens and burnt the trash so I am going back to bed to read.
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- patsy
- born in arkansas, lived here all my life, 75 years old. keep chickens and I like to read.
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For those of you who don't know our dear old Sister has had several operations on her gut. She has mesh in her stomach and a hole there that will not heal over and this places oozes and causes dear old sister great discomfort. But her biggest problem comes from the scars from the surgeries. These scars grow and finally almost block her intestine. Now, this causes bloating and intense pain. Each time she is so afraid to go to the hospital because...you know that they usually want to cut, cut cut again. I am the ONE Sister who believes that she is better off to continue to try and get by with letting them in there to fix what they have messed up over the past decades.
My prayer is Old Sister...that you can continue on and one night you will go to sleep and not wake up. We will mourn and cry and holler but I hope when you cross over the way it will be a smooth sail in your own bed! My rant for the day.
Of all the Sisters--Patsy and I are really most alike. I think that is why I like what she says...I may think the same but don't usually have the GUTS to type it out. Her gut is stronger than mine!
Read away, Sister, enjoy the day! I just read the Bernie Madoff saga and I enjoyed it so much. He was much more evil than I ever imagined. Now I am reading about the symbols in our national government. On the dollar, capitol, etc. It is good too!
I left out OUT. Patsy is better off to continue on without letting them get to her with a knife is my belief.
sorry I am not very good when I am crying.
It is hard to think about you dying Patsy...hopefully you will just go in your sleep....I think if it was me I would have to be cut on because I could not stand 3 years of stuff running out of my gut...I just would be so tired of It, I would have to do something....and just pray they were able to fix it and if not realize I did the best I could because I could not continue with it anymore...If I was just able to lay in the bed at an old folks home that is just the chance I would have to take....I would pray I would die on the table instead..But I know I could not live with a hole in my gut running foul stuff out for 3 years. Unable to do much of anything...But that is all up to you and I am glad you have put up with it for 3 years...I will miss you when you are gone and I thought the other day was going to be the end...
I will cry and be sad but there are worse things than dying..
I have written your name down in my Bible under deaths,,the date is blank...I have written my name right below yours, the date is also blank...I hope I do not see another brother or sister's name go between ours......I know I look pretty good and I try every day to get up and think how blessed I am. I have my girl for 3 more months..But I am tired..
Tired of feeling bad, tired of so many pills. tired of my brain not working like it used to...I'm just tired...Hopefully my heart will just give out one day..I hope I got to clean house, fix my hair, have on make up and go shopping that day. get back home and Surprise...If only we got to choose how we go..
They say you often go the way you live...I have tried to live fast...hopefully that will be the way I go...
I do love you Sister and I wish you still had a spring in your step and a sing in your voice.
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